Speak Your Mind

A skill as a curse?

2010-03-05T09:36:00.003-08:00

Lots of stuff transpired
And I believe my vocabulary has expanded
How fun

Today wasn't really a good day as usual
Damn it
Why do I have a good analytical mind?
Makes my life worse, damn
Seriously.... ARGH

A skill as a curse?

2010-03-05T09:36:00.001-08:00

Honing in progress

2010-01-11T09:31:00.001-08:00

Gotta hone my skills
Lest I lose my fill
Of rhymes that I set up for people to view
I don't charge any bills
I do it for thrills
Enjoying it because I love the thrill
That I get
When I perfectly set
Rhymes in tight beats that just stick in your head
So I swing like a batter
Set up on the platter
Diamond's ready, better make sure that the ball shatters
And OH! See, it's outta the park
I knew for sure that I'd hit the mark
Succession as it seems is not a problem
So why do I fear that I'll hit rock bottom?

Hm... Rhymes done and set.
Lots of crap goin on lately
Especially a few hours ago
Man... What a blow that was
And a day or two ago I was happy for nothing huh?
Self-fed joy... Bah...
Gotta make my rhymes better
So I can make you fatter
By feeding you rhymes as I serve them on a platter
... Oops, force of habit
....... *sigh*
Peace out

Expression

2009-12-18T09:37:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow's the day
And I just gotta say
Thank God for this way
Through Him I've been saved
I am no longer a slave
To sin
I grin
From ear to ear
So people hear
My rhymes from my mind
As I swing
There's a ring
To the rap
And perhaps
You would understand
And just comprehend
My words... Right

Tomorrow's the musical
Totally fantastical
Mind-blowing, radical
Some say nonsensical?
Heck no, coz' we put Christ as the main theme
And people who scoff soon, to be redeemed
As it would seem
Christ and us make a good team
So nothing will ever, ever remain a dream

Well, there are times when I rhyme openly
And people around laugh sarcastically
Thinking that I'm talking like a mad man
Not knowing that I'm training to be a man
Of God
Giving Him everything I got
Not holding back my flow
Of rhymes, pure gold
Oh yes, I am blessed by the Lord since ages past
But no one could feel me, so I just chose to let it be
However today I see the true reality
That giving him praise supercedes individuality

So Lord, oh God here are my skills
Take them and hone them into a fine drill
And let me use it to dig into people's minds
And fill them with your Word through these rhymes
Peace.

Another set of rhymes

2009-11-27T08:19:00.000-08:00

Getting back on track
I know I've slacked
But now I'm back
With this contract
I signed with God
It ain't so hard
Life, I mean
The way I see it ain't what it's deemed
to be, for me
Coz' I'm rooted like a tree
In the God of eternity
So now, let's see

Well
Life was bad, made me sad
I cried with tears, that I shed
Still I gotta move on
So, so long, moving from
This pain, which I maimed
Gotta abstain from thoughts disdained

Yeah... It's late thru the night
Time to rest... Can't complete this rhyme
Oh well

The Way of the Emo

2009-11-25T06:46:00.000-08:00

Jealousy turning saints into the sea
- from the song that's playing in my blog

Stop asking me for titles, stupid Blogger

2009-11-14T07:04:00.001-08:00

Why in the _____ do we need titles anyway?
Geez...

Having super lots of thoughts lately
Aside from rhymes popping up in my head
Social, studies, finances... All the works

Well, I did experience moments of "brain-dead" recently
When I went to my friend's apartment and played Half-Life
Seriously, it puts to practice DotA's Kardel Sharpeye's quote:
"Shoot to kill!"
(I became no life because I played Half-Life, lame?)

Studies-wise, I guess I need to put in more effort?
My results for the mock examination wasn't too satisfactory
Eluded by my own words that I can make it by trying a little
Meh, have to buck up

Finance-wise, I'm actually saving for the first time, in my life
And it would seem that I'm becoming more of a cheapskate
Which, is, really, wrong
On the other hand, looking at the money I saved up motivates me
Meh...

Social-wise... As always, questions everywhere
Am I really accepted?
Are these people whom I call "friends" really friends?
Do they treat me as a friend, or a mere acquaintance?
All these stuff pop-up from time to time
Why? My analytical mind is sharp, what can I say?
I see things, I get a hypothesis of what is what
Then, things get gloomy

Another thing is, well, Alex would know what I'm gonna say here
I guess I'm nothing more than a stray?
In front of minor positive phenomenons I get real happy
Then shit happens, and I get dragged down into sadness

One looks like a locked door
The other is opened, but I can see as though there's nothing in there for me
I guess, I really am a stray
I'll always have a place to stay, but not a real home
And no, this does not refer to my family, I'm speaking in a rather abstract way...

Another destress moment

2009-11-12T02:00:00.000-08:00

Suspicion arose
Time set and froze
The inner side was really just plain gross

Tried to look inside of me
With all that animosity
Things were not how they were ever meant to be

I thought like this, I thought like that
But things seemed worse, and that's just sad

But man, it's bad, I had, like anger in my heart
My head, my mind just let everything start
To go out of hand, hard not to offend
People whom I cared, it's worse than being dead
Oh yes, I was obsessed with my own good
Now I know I was nothing more than a fool
And yeah, it ain't cool...

I do not know what to think
My mind strays far from what is right
Geez, rhymin' is the only thing keeping me straight right now
Lord please grant me insight
Or break my will instead, it'll work faster...

What to do?

2009-11-05T03:16:00.000-08:00

A trekker is in the woods
He arrives to a crossroad
2 paths seems to interest him
But he does not know of which should he trek on

The 2 paths are different

The one to the left, he remembers seeing it before
Seems predictable, reasonable enough to take it?
However the section of the forest that it leads to seems alive
This is bad, as the trekker had cut down plants on his way through
The forest looked as though it would attack him

The one on the right is an anonymous road
It seems safe enough, at least from the trekker's point of view
This side of the forest seems to be more serene
Looking closely, the trekker sees an imp trying to close off the path
The blockade seems formidable, but nonetheless penetrable

So, what will the trekker do?
Which path will he take?
Or will he find another better path in this crossroad?
How intriguing, no?

Destress

2009-11-02T06:35:00.000-08:00

Reality, stares right back at me
As infinity finds its own affinity
In yours truly, it's just plain to see
I have time to kick it with simile

I drop rhymes as they stir in my mind
Placing it perfectly making it sublime
The people think it's easy as I flow with ease
But this mindset is what causes the disease
Disease, underestimating hip-hop quality
They say it's tight in a tone of superiority
But where's the plot? For this whole lot
The rhymes they bustin', nothing more than just lip servin'
Where the soul at? I can't take off my hat
To that, at least I know where I at
Though I'm just starting, like right off the bat
Perhaps you need lessons, medics they sayin' 'stat'

...
Meh.... Whatever

Talk-talk sia

2009-11-01T06:55:00.000-08:00

Animosity leads to fear
Fear leads to discovery
Discovery leads to endless possibilities
- Quoted from, Kenneth (I hope no one said this before)

Today was angry
Felt pissed
Got over it, feeling better

Got to understand, there are unreasonable jackers
We have to "un-jack" ourselves when they jack us up
Else, it'll be an endless cycle altogether...

Oh yes, is it legal to cut into another lane?
Not on a straight road, duh
On a round-about road, this here road
So many jackers trying to cut in front of me nowadays
So what do I do?
Honk the hell out of them, till they wuss out back to their lane
Jackers, slow flowers to the left, we pros go to the right
Straight up, suckazz

Failures are good

2009-10-22T07:59:00.001-07:00

When we fail, what happens?

We sit in a corner
We cry
Cry some more
Cry even some more
Stand up, stand tall

Okay, that's just an EXAMPLE
What's important is the 5th point
Do we do that?

Failures lead to the bettering of us
Failures in a sense, completes our incompleteness
Failures are definitely good, beneficial in fact
But, how many of us are willing to LEARN from failures?

I'm not one of the learners, I often feel too sad about it to learn anything
Haha, but the point I'm trying to convey to you is, that
We have to try to learn from our failures
In fact, I'm learning from my failure to learn from my failures
Get it?
Out.

Modernisation, what a pain

2009-10-14T08:37:00.001-07:00

Being modern is cool and all
With you being hip and updated, I mean, who wouldn't want to be modern?
So everyone is trying to get the latest thing around the block
It's cool, really, it is

But, hey, people...
For everyone's sake
Please, once in awhile, at least when you are able to access the internet
Check your freakin e-mail inbox

Argh, it's already Thursday (2o minutes more actually)
And the majority of the people are not replying
Replying whether they wanna go for the trek/hike this Sunday
And it is really, really... bothersome
Haiz, cooperate please...
It's really tiresome too...
But it's cool, at most the event will be canceled, right?

Sigh...
After that rant, please
Check your e-mail inbox...
Like, now

Insanity strikes

2009-09-22T17:46:00.000-07:00

Not that anyone has gone insane
Well, maybe I have
After seeing today's traffic, that is

Woke up at 6.50 or so
Had to drop my mom and sis to office n school, respectively

Drove past Midah to Loke Yew, traffic was moderate
Reached Tsun Jin at 7.20++
Depart for KLCC area after that to drop my mom

Passed by Sungei Wang and Times Square area
Traffic was, seriously without pulling anything, excellent
I did not have to slow down as in, not that many cars to congest the traffic
Only slowed and stopped when the lights were red
Reached my mom's office about 7.30++
Unbelievable?

Departed from KLCC to home
Route taken was Ampang Park > Ampang Point > Carrefour Ampang
Well, I suck with street names, so sue me
Traffic was insane, totally did not stop at all
Well, there was these few times I stopped for lights
But, heck, Ampang area was totally, er, ghostly?

So I dropped off everyone and came back
Total time taken was 40+ minutes?
Oh em gee >_>
Insane

I eat noobs for snacks

2009-09-21T10:39:00.000-07:00

I eat noobs for snacks

Who are noobs?
Joshua Foo and Kei Ren
Why are they noobs?
All spout no guts

Word

Knowing

2009-09-07T08:17:00.001-07:00

No, nothing to do with movies here
Coincidentally using the same title as the movie Knowing
Seriously

Tomorrow is like doomsday, why?
The first accounts class takes place tomorrow
Yes, a lot of people did not finish the homework given
And I'm proud to say that I'm one of them
(Wait, is proud really the right thing to say here?)

Anyways, to relate to the title of this post
I know what I know, and I know what I know not
Therefore, I find it irrelevant to do the exercises given
I have put to practice what I know of
And what I know not I have not had a chance to practice
Or rather, I can't practice it as I know not how to complete the question

To proceed, I need to complete my knowledge of this chapter
Hence, knowing comes first
Screw the homework
Mwuahahaha~

Transmission ended

Wicked Sick

2009-09-02T17:00:00.000-07:00

If there was a broadcast everytime someone "owned" others
Be it physically or mentally
I bet we'll hear that broadcast everyday in MCKL
Every single day when Mr. Ferns has class, that is

The build-up or arrangement for "ownage" voice clips is as follow:
Killing Spree (3)
Dominating (4)
Mega Kill (5)
Unstoppable (6)
Wicked Sick (7)
M-m-m-m-m-monster kill (8)
Godlike (9)
Beyond Godlike (Holy Shit) (10)

*Numbers being amount of people "owned"

So everyday we would be hearing the broadcast go
"Holy Shit" "Holy Shit" "Holy Shit"
Hm, I suppose it would be so
Coz aside from Mr Ferns' heavy-duty homework giveaway
There's also the Dark Knight of MCKL, AKA Datin
Ugh, I really wonder how many people get "owned" everyday...

The reason for me posting this is because I opened my eyes
Yes, I opened my eyes to the workload of Accounts
And I am not even slightly humoured, period
It's atrocious considering the workload and how our work isn't really checked
How so?
Procedure:
1.) Homework given
2.) Work it all out
3.) Asked if work is completed
4.) Go ahead with next chapter

I mean what the heck?
If you ain't checking, then don't give it
We have things we want to do too, y'know?
... Geez.......

Whatever, back to slaving...

Stressed?

2009-08-29T09:28:00.000-07:00

When you're stressed
What do you do?
Simple
Sing this song XD

Gives You Hell
I wake up every evening
With a big smile on my face
And it never feels out of place

And you're still probably working
At a 9 to 5 pace
I wonder how bad that tastes

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell

And where's your picket fence, love
And where's that shiny car
And did it ever get you far
You never seemed so tense, love
I've never seen you fall so hard
And do you know where you are

And truth be told I miss you
And truth be told I'm lying

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell

If you find a man that's worth a damn that treats you well
Then he's a fool, you're just as well
Hope it gives you hell
I hope it gives you hell

Tomorrow you'll be thinking to yourself
Where did it all go wrong
And the list goes on and on

And truth be told I miss you
And truth be told I'm lying

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell

If you find a man that's worth a damn that treats you well
Then he's a fool, you're just as well
Hope it gives you hell

Now you'll never see
What you've done to me
You can take back your memories
They're no good to me

And here's all your lies
You can look me in the eyes
With the sad, sad look
That you wear so well

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell

If you find a man that's worth a damn that treats you well
Then he's a fool, you're just as well
Hope it gives you hell

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell

When you hear this song and sing along, well you'll never tell
Then you're a fool, I'm just as well, hope it gives you hell
When you hear this song I hope that it will give you hell
You can sing along, I hope it puts you through hell

Bored

2009-08-23T07:03:00.000-07:00

Boredom strikes once again
Why?
Everything is going well, that's why

DotA, I have now found a few 'kaki' to play with
Which are consistent in terms of technique and strategy
No such thing as "not in the zone"
Except for a few times when... Well... Crack happens
Overall, when we play together
Unless enemies hack, yes, people hack in DotA
There is ultimate pwnage

Studies, there are times when I fail in understanding stuff
But, this is caused by my lack of interest
Not that I am unable to comprehend the essence of that subject
Still, after putting in a wee effort, everything smoothed out
So, I guess overall it's alright
Gonna try putting in a bit more effort... A bit...

As for personal interests...
Sigh... This part sucks...
Not smooth, not good, how noob...
I need to... Put in lots more, lots more effort
So sorry... To Myself >_>

Over and out

Apologies

2009-08-11T02:57:00.000-07:00

Much apologies to anyone out there
Who got offended by my post about Adidas and Gary
Was definitely pissed then, calmed down now

I'm not going to say that I have completely forgotten this matter
Neither am I going to spit vulgarity here in this post

After reading through some papers, or webs
The higher-ups claimed that they had given Gary the best treatment
And that his death was inevitable
Let's regard this statement as though it was true right now
And ask a question
Why was Gary left in the basement of the stadium?
If you had done your best in treating him, and sadly, failed
Why didn't you contact his family?
Or even bring him to the hospital or anything?
Surely there's a certain procedure to this kind of things
And even if you never expected this to happen
What about your mind? What does it tell you to do?
I have to agree that they were negligent about this

...Shah Alam mayor Mazlan Mat Noor expressed the council's sympathy over the incident. He added that Gary had received the best treatment possible from the Civil Defence Department staff when he first collapsed...

“If the family wants an explanation from us, we are ready to talk to them regarding the incident.”
-Malay Mail-

The family now blames the organisers - who they alleged had left him unattended for more than 15 minutes.

“Now we hold the organisers responsible for this. I believe this is negligence,” said Robert, the CEO of a private college.

He said that there were no professional medics around when Gary fainted and: “When my son asked for water they couldn’t even give him that.”

The family also alleged that they were given the runaround and did not get a good explanation from the organisers.

-Malay Mail-

Two different stories, from two different sides
My feelings side for his family, while my logic remains undetermined
Both could be right, however...
My logic is now starting to side with the family, why?

As above, a video of Gary being carried off by 3 paramedics
Logically speaking, if the medics do not treat him at the spot
And carries him off to somewhere
Would that mean, I don't know, they will treat him elsewhere?
So the rehydration process was slowed down because of this?
Did the slowing down of the process caused his death?
Or did they just carry him off somewhere else and let him be
Thinking that it is just another case of dizzy spell
No matter how I look at it, from any angle at all
I'm disgusted
The "best treatment possible from the Civil Defence Department staff"
Amounts to this? Really now?
How low can you go? Really now?

By the way, some facts of dehydration and rehydration
Sources from here:

Symptoms of moderate to severe dehydration include:

low blood pressure
fainting
severe muscle contractions in the arms, legs, stomach, and back
convulsions
a bloated stomach
heart failure
sunken fontanelle - soft spot on a infants head
sunken dry eyes, with few or no tears
skin loses its firmness and looks wrinkled
lack of elasticity of the skin (when a bit of skin lifted up stays folded and takes a long time to go back to its normal position)
rapid and deep breathing - faster than normal
fast, weak pulse

In severe dehydration, these effects become more pronounced and the patient may develop evidence of hypovolaemic shock, including: diminished consciousness, lack of urine output, cool moist extremities, a rapid and feeble pulse (the radial pulse may be undetectable), low or undetectable blood pressure, and peripheral cyanosis. Death follows soon if rehydration is not started quickly.

I am not what you would call, a person with superb high education
But isn't all this just too obvious?
Something . Smells . Fishy
And I don't mean it literally

'Pui' everything out

2009-08-10T03:56:00.000-07:00

Wanna cut hair, trim actually
But don't wanna do it at the saloon near my house
They say "trim", but they sorta massacre it
Cut very short = trim, to them...

Feel like running for presidency next year
Both Student Council and Christian Fellowship
Yes, I might sound like I'm joking but I'm not
Why?
I want experiences, dang
Feel so bored...
But discouraged by some people, dang
Zzzzz... Really cannot meh?

Car still not fixed
Very "sien"
Everyday drive around in this car
Not that I hate it
But, aside from having that "war scar"
This car is super low
And I dunno if it's the suspension's problem or what
I can't go through bumps at 30km/h
Don't know lah...
Feeling like I'm driving one old car here
But, upside is, I have a car to drive, suckaaazzzz, mwuahaha

Hm, having slight headache now
Hearing some sort of "eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee" sound in my ears
Really, really painful
Gosh, wonder if I'm okay, lolz
Bored, tata

Damn you Adidas

2009-08-04T09:12:00.000-07:00

Watch:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6z2VtfcXlvI

That's him
What the hell were those people doing?
Those idiots who were wearing "Perubatan" vests
You freakin morons caused a life
No, I think the organisers are to be blamed
Hiring some half-assed medics
And how in the hell did he end up being in the basement of the stadium?

Screw you Adidas
If a lawsuit is headed towards you
Be prepared to suffer like you never suffered before
Damn pissed

First, he reached the end of the race
Then, medics carried him off after he collapsed
He WENT MISSING
FOR A WHOLE FRICKIN DAY
Then, found in the stadium's basement
Explain how could this have happened
Oh ye "honorable" organisers of Adidas: King of the Road

ARGH
FREAKIN PISSED
DAMN IT

Damn it, another emo day

2009-08-03T05:17:00.000-07:00

Things happen
Shit happens
Anything can happen
Anytime
Anywhere
Any day

How do you prevent this from happening?

You don't
It just happens
Don't say you regret something
Don't say you should have or could have
Don't say anything
Really
Don't
...
...

I really am speechless regarding this matter
Heck, I even felt like crying when I heard the news
But nothing came out
It was like my inside was totally empty
Wow
I guess when someone is really sad they just can't express it

Goodbye Gary
See you when I see you...

"Why so emo lah?"

2009-07-31T10:12:00.000-07:00

Today is really not a good day for me
Lots of nonsense happened
Unforeseen events, negative ones, happened consecutively
From morning till night, till just now in fact, this went on and on
My comment for today is... WATSUP LAH??

Car got banged
Yes, my U-turn is cacat-ed
Blocked the other fellow's road
Then ker-blammmmm
Banged
Freakin panicked then, but now feel so empty
Weird...

By the way, that dude could've braked for sure
I mean the distance between us before impact was like, 2 cars apart?
He was probably going on a speed of 20~25kmh
Know why he wasn't able to brake?
He wasn't looking in front. He was looking to his left
For some unknown reason, or reasons...

The funny part of it was that he tried so hard to pretend his leg really hurts
Why?
When he left the scene of the crime, he sat back on his motorcycle
Made a few moans and complains about pain
Then moved his "injured leg" up and about the motorcycle as he went off
You know, around the place where motorcyclists put their feet
He was able to move his leg around here and there near that place
Dumb joker

Still, I feel really bad
I mean, I don't feel bad for that jacker
I feel bad for my car, that's about it
And for the fact that I had to go through another accident... Brilliant, no?

Oh yea, after the accident happened I totally lost it
Was walking up and down at the side of the road
Sang "Untitled" by Simple Plan
And, well, I literally jumped around there...
I feel awkward now. haha

Then after the accident I continued with the plan of going to BBQ Night in college
Was delayed, expected to reach at about, say, 8.30?
Then I had to go and lose my bearings and get lost in Bangsar
Sorry guys... Julius and Janice, I mean

SIGH
FREAKIN NO MOOD
EMO!!
EMO!!
EMO!!

Seriously, damn it

2009-07-26T07:13:00.000-07:00

Jack, Elaine and Kevin were friends. Jason was oldest of them all, while Elaine was the second oldest and Kevin being the youngest.

One day, Kevin was playing a video game, while Elaine and Jack were sitting around talking to each other. Kevin wasn't exactly doing that well in the game, since he just started playing it.

Elaine, who also started not too long ago, but had more guidance from her family members that played that game too, started to comment on how poorly Kevin performed in that game. A few examples of what she had said would go like this, "Oh my gosh, I can't believe you did that." "Wow, your character's almost dead, this is scary" "Hah, seriously?"

Kevin laughed as she continued to comment on his poor gaming skills. He knew he sucked real bad in that game, so what can he do about those comments?

Jack, who sat there observing the whole situation, didn't really do anything about it. He just sat there, and observed all the way. He was the best player amongst them three, yet he didn't really want to comment that much.

When the whole thing started to die down, Carla, another friend of theirs, came over and asked for help in that game which Kevin was playing.

Before Kevin could even say anything, Elaine started to tell Carla how horribly he played the game and told Carla that it would be best not to ask Kevin for help.

So what in the seven seas could Kevin do, but to laugh along and make it all sound like a freakin joke? He tried to do better in the game, but heck, all anyone or everyone ever did in that room that day was either comment on how lousy he is or keep quiet while observing how he played.
HOW, FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THAT'S GOOD, CAN HE IMPROVE?
SERIOUSLY, DAMN IT.

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Yeah, whatever. Kinda random for me to write so much.
Just wanted to scream and stuff.
But heck, blogs do the job better than screaming like a mad man.
Hm, my throat still hurts a wee bit.
When I swallow, that is.
But, chill yeah Matthew? I got struck the same way 2 weeks ago.
Gonna get better soon.

Hm, starting to find the philosophies of some individuals funny.
Preach it, but they don't practice it.
So what's that make them? Hypocrites?
Nah, if this qualifies people as hypocrites, aren't we all?
Hahahaha...

Just saying

2009-07-17T10:33:00.000-07:00

Apparently the government did something pointless, again
They changed some of the PMR/SPM subjects to Malay
If I'm not mistaken, I think this includes Science and Maths
So, what's up lah?

Before this they complained, wanted it in English
Then now they complain yet again, wanting it in Malay
Make up your mind, people
Stop being unfair to your kids/next generation
I mean, you're making the decisions, yeah
But who are the ones suffering the consequences
I know it ain't gonna be you people from the government
Man, they should get sued or something...

Hm, it's not that I'm prejudicial against these subjects being taught in Malay
But, really now, what are their arguments in this switch?
Since I don't read the newspaper or anything of any relevance
I don't really know what are their reasons for this change

But I can tell, one of the reasons is most probably this :
"We want to respect our native tongue"
Or "This is Malaysia, not England or America"
Or even "We want to respect our culture and tradition"

First off, it's great that they want to respect their native tongue
Heck, what about us? Leave our native tongue to rot?
Next, I know this is Malaysia, yeah I really do know that
If you're so proud of this being your mother nation
Then why are you trying to be Americans or even Englishmen?
You follow their culture to an extent of perhaps more than 50%
And now you say that "This is Malaysia" ?
Wow, speechless...

Another thing is, the government sends people off to foreign countries
In order for them to further their studies, of course
And most of them are on scholarships
So why the heck are you teaching them these essential subjects...
In Malay? And on such a low standard at that.
Oh and maybe the government forgot about this
Most, almost none, countries don't know what the Malay language is all about

I'm really sleepy
Not sure if I can type anything right
But heck, I know and you know it's obvious
The changing of language in different subjects = WASTE of TIME AND MONEY

Why must I put a topic here?

2009-07-15T09:25:00.001-07:00

Sleepy
Have to wake up by, like, 5.50 later
So I have around 5 hours of sleep
Then wake up, bathe
And go to college
Wow
Not really surprised, or heavyhearted

Hm, meh, this blog is like a dump
Kinda fun though
I get to trash, or thrash
As above, people or things that I don't like

Hm, college is more or less boring
At times only, so, yeah
I guess I made a few friends(?)
Hm, I dunno if this title would be appropriate
Since, well, I don't really feel "Nokia-ed" with them
(Nokia-ed? Hm, google their slogan)
I guess, yeah, we do talk and do stuff
But somehow it feels like a process
Maybe I'm just being greedy, haha
I guess it feels like
Talk to them and there isn't really a response
Or talk to them and ignorance pays a visit
It could be that they didn't hear what I said
Hm, dunno lah

Masks play a farce
Honesty scarce
Hold it in myself like a jar
Ah, bored

Streamyx problem?

2009-07-01T09:11:00.000-07:00

Are there any other Streamyx subscribers out there,
that are suffering from lag lately?
I wanna play DotA without disconnecting >_>
Sigh, bored

Orientation continues tomorrow
Bumpz...

Bumpz

2009-06-27T10:42:00.000-07:00

Orientation is next Wednesday
Wow, it's like... What to say?

Anyways went back to secondary school today
To run some errands and what not
Met with some old school friends
Talked with them, shared what's up
And just noticed, well, I really switched gear since I left school
When I was in secondary school I was practically in, what, fifth gear?
Once I came out, second gear or third maybe?
Private school students (in general) are just too 'speedy'
But well, don't slow down as much as I have, I'm a bad example, haha

Well, lately I've started to play more DotA matches
But I can't end the games properly, why?
I am disconnected before I can even end it, so, that's why
Geez... What's up with the connection?
Been hearing plenty of complaints recently about Streamyx
So, I guess... Yeah...

And today, well, don't know what to say
Something's just not right
But everyone's just too into the moment to notice it I guess
Could be just me only that thinks so
Or is it so? Don't know
Whatever, I am of lower status, who am I to speak?
Hahahahaha

Title not required

2009-06-21T09:38:00.000-07:00

Random babbles...
Anything that comes to mind, hm

Noticed that I lost 10kg
Yes, I did lose that much
Still wondering how I did it, weird...
It just, disappeared

Futsal is fun
Playing as a goalie most of the time
Hm, really wanna try scoring
Sometimes will swap and be a striker
But somehow just can't... score... Gah...

I am getting more and more analytical
Even the smallest of things I will think there's something big behind it
Well, if it's the negativity I hope I'm just wrong
As for the positivity... Seems far-fetched, but I want it to be real

Getting bored of online games
I think I can summarize the whole gaming process of most online games
Create a character, then here comes the repetitive process:
Hack and slash your way to more experience points to level-up your character
Wow... Boring...
At least every new DotA game/match starts from scratch...
And everything is more, well, "fast"
Levels and currency and annihilation of other players
Go figure

Ah yes...
Currently having a relapse of an old "disease"
It's more like giving myself more trouble, actually
Since logically speaking, I know I won't really gain anything
But for some weird illogical reasons, I went and activated the "disease"
Now it's in passive mode and well, can't really be stopped
Not really making sense here, hwahaha

P.S:
Just watched a crazy gamer video sent by Metallics
Apparently the world has talented yet insane people, haha

Anger kills brain cells....

2009-06-14T00:22:00.000-07:00

Anger kills brain cells
So your head ain't so active when you're angry
Why am I commenting about this?

I drove home earlier, with my dad in my car
Well, made some minor mistakes, seriously minor ones
Hm, then he just had to make super-overdramatic-responses
Causing me to get worked up in the whole thing
Angry + stress
Then started making more mistakes

So, caution to all, don't friggin' piss someone off
When that person is doing something
Coz' you know why?
He or she will just make more mistakes
Then you're just gonna yap more about the mistakes
And more mistakes will be born from that
Wow, vicious cycle

Whatever, I've chilled, word

Too late a post

2009-06-03T08:29:00.000-07:00

...
Actually wanted to talk about last week's illness
And post it here
But, it's like a bit too late...
Ish..
Well, either way, a gist of it

Thursday night had "road-side stall" burgers for supper
Friday morning woke up and felt sluggish
Continued to sleep till woke up and vomit, sleep again
Woke up, had temperature, went to another place to sleep
Sweated, felt better, ready for Friday CG, yay
Before leaving, had a relapse, cannot move, super tired
Didn't know what caused fever, till I vomited again

Summary, had food poisoning that caused fever
Wow, so simple
But then, Saturday couldn't really eat much
Weak stomach...
SAD
I love eating, so it was SAD
SAD TRAGEDY
...
...
...

Oh well
Lazy

Quote Hulk?

2009-05-22T02:18:00.000-07:00

"You won't like me when I'm angry"
Or something like so?

Anyways today went to Times Square to watch
"Night @ the Museum 2"
The movie is kinda fun to watch
I would say there's more action this time around
Compared to the last one, that is
And yea, like my bro said, it is kinda watching a parody
Darth Vader, some 'thing' from Sesame Street, joke from Pink Panther
It's like, watching a half of " (blank) Movie" series, e.g. : Disaster Movie
And another half of something original, feels kinda weird
But overall it's good, if you feel like catching a goofy flick
Oh yes, and there was a part where it felt like God of War
Like 2 Kratos, without the power and weapons and magic
Fighting Titans, without the indestructibility and crazy look

Alright, moving on, Times Square
Today equals last day of exam at my secondary school
So lots of people from my ex-school came to Times Square to chill
And of course, come along some jack-rear-ends from my school
Let's call them Group A, for the sake of cutting things short
Group A consists of a bunch of wimps who, well...
Let's say, like to provoke me into a fight by intimidating me
Why provoke me?
Hm, partly my fault actually, recall...

It was some day, forgot what day was it
Afternoon break time, lunch time, yea?
I was lining up, waiting for my turn
When some jack-rear-end was playing around in front of me
It was his turn, and another jack-rear-end cut in to his side
Apparently both were friends, and took their sweet time there
I think I waited for ten minutes?
And I was second, or third since someone cut in, in line
I wasn't going to stand around like some Mr. Nice Guy
So I just made some "tch" sounds
Talked and complained to a friend next to me, quite audible, non-whisper
So that first jack-rear-end, or just B, turned around and stared at me
Stare game? Whatever, I joined in, stared back at him
Until his friend called him to go, since they FINALLY got their stuff
P.S: B is a chinese, who looks like a malay, almost 80% I think

After I got my plate of rice...
Yes, I waited for 15+ minute for a plate of rice
(waiting in line + Jack-rear-ends lack of consideration)
After that, went and sit with my friends to eat
And joy oh joy, those jack-rear-ends were nearby
All together, banding the jack-rear-ends team, Group A, yay
Alright, now to explain why I call them wimps
Now that he has his own "gang", as I would call it
Oh yea, he as in the guy, B
So, B actually stood up and tried to provoke me to a fight
I think he said something like "Want fight is it? Come la" (in Chinese)
Since I felt really pissed off from this moron's earlier actions
I just said "You want fight then come here la, no point talk only" (in Chinese)
So lasted for awhile, I was too lazy to even give a crap about it
Sat down, ate my lunch
Then was chatting with my friends, talking about trivial stuff
When Group A was leaving, B tried to provoke me again
"Wow, doesn't have a brain does he?"
So I just did the same, provoke the provoker
He almost came and land a punch on me
Well, a punch that was so obvious one could've dodged it and slapped him back
A smarter friend of his told him to stop
But then that friend of his proved me wrong, by saying
"Come la, wait for you at the school gates, want fight is it?" (In Chinese)
.........
Why are there so many jack-rear-ends around? *Sigh*

Sure, those people continued to harass me whenever they see me
Throughout last year, the whole year, yeah
Although the funny thing is
When one of them is alone, they don't do nothing
Only when they are in a group of at least 3, then they start provoking
Anyways, I don't do nothing to them too
I find it kind of pointless to even try to smack them
Though the idea of it sounds so, alluring? Hahaha
So the whole year I let them diss me
Since fighting wimps is kinda, no wait
Since fighting is kinda pointless, it's a cycle thingy

Alright, back to the present...
Was at Times Square, Group A was there too
Wow, half a year has passed
And they still wanna diss me, I was like, wow
Don't they have anything better to do?
Point was, I felt really pissed
I did feel like waiting for my bro, joel and elizabeth to go in first
Oh, we were going into the cinema when this happened
Then just smack the hell out of them, I think there was more than 5?
And since I wasn't in school anymore, it was even more tempting
Coz won't get expelled and stuff
Plus if security came, I could say they provoked me
I'd at most get a warning, that's it

Then kept cool, relaxed
Why fight wimps? Waste of energy, you know?
Plus, even if they are wimps, there are more than 5 of them there
Guess I just cooled down
I really did feel like punching one of them, extremely wanted to
Punch who? Punch B of course
Why?
He was the one who acted all so big trying to provoke me
But only when his friends were there

Sigh
Feels much better now letting it out
I know they'll get in more trouble next time
Or maybe they'll wimp out before getting it, who knows?
Ah, well, over and out

Crash?

2009-05-10T00:01:00.000-07:00

Was driving earlier
From church > Leisure Mall > church > home

For some reasons my dad wasn't really encouraging
I mean, yeah, I drive like kinda reckless a bit
I'm still learning the tricks and tips of driving
Give me a break
There are times I drive quite well
And there isn't any compliment
What the hell man
Is complimenting another person so hard?
Seriously I think it'd boost me a lot
And I'd remember what is right, I mean, I got complimented, no?

Sigh, just feeling uber down
Duh? Being scolded doesn't exactly feel nice, does it?
Comic time.... Yeesh...

Ah, memories

2009-05-06T07:57:00.000-07:00

I remembered the times when me and my school friends
We snoop around the net looking for stupid stupid videos...
Time to share em'...
Hahaha

Oh, and here's a rap about Matzah, hahaha

Ah, just a few but they will do...
Matzah!

MU pWn j00!!!!!!11

2009-05-05T20:40:00.000-07:00

Stayed up to watch football earlier
Manchester United dominated Arsenal 3-1
Hm, although the referee's decisions in the first half
Seem kinda in favour of MU
Oh yes, in the second half
After Berbatov and Rafael were both swapped in
MU just plain sucked more in performance
Compared with the earlier performance they had shown
Maybe Ferguson just doesn't wanna admit
That buying Berbatov with that much $$ was a mistake

Oh yes, how I wish I could go to Japan for a trip or something
So many things of theirs pique my interest
Still, now I'm just a wisher wishing, dreamer dreaming
Maybe someday I'd get a chance to go there, for reals
Travel around the whole country maybe
Look look, see see, hear hear, and of course eat eat

Oh yes... Connection at home sucks
Mozilla disconnecting all the time
Connection disconnecting from time to time
Downloads are as slow as... One fifth of the normal rate, I'd say
Ahhh, bored

SPARRRTAAAAAAA

Skipping blogs

2009-05-02T09:47:00.001-07:00

Skipped some blogs, and found this MindMedia thingy

Tested my brain usage, results:

Your Brain Usage Profile:

Auditory : 53%
Visual : 46%
Left : 44%
Right : 55%

Kenneth, you show a slight right-hemisphere dominance with a moderate preference for auditory processing, an unusual and somewhat paradoxical combination of characteristics.

You are drawn to a random and sometimes nonchalant synthesis of material. You learn as it seems important to a specific situation, and might even develop a resentment of others who attempt to direct your learning down a specific channel.

Your right-hemispheric dominance provides a structure that is only loosely organized and one which processes entire swatches of reality, overlooking details. You are emotional in your reactions and perceptual more than logical in your approach, although you can impose structure and a language base when necessary.

Your auditory preference, on the other hand, implies that you process information sequentially and unidimensionally. This combination of right-brain and auditory modes creates conflict, as you want to process data more rapidly than your natural processes allow.

Your tendency to be creative and free-flowing is accompanied by sufficient ability to organize and be logical, allowing you a reasonable degree of success in a number of different endeavors. You take in information methodically and systematically which can then be synthesized rapidly. In this manner, you manage to function consistently well, although certainly less efficiently than you desire.

You prefer the abstract and are a theoretician at heart while retaining the ability to be practical. You find the symbolism in a great deal of what you encounter and are something of a "mystic."

With regards to your lifestyle, you have the mentality which would be good as a philosopher, writer, journalist, or instructor, or possibly as a systems designer or social worker. Perhaps most important is your ability to "listen to your inner voice" as a mode of skipping over unnecessary steps to achieve your goals.

Don't really 100% get what it says.
But would say, kinda defines me, haha
Fun's over, today's time to ask around.
And by the way, MindMedia
I cannot be defined, I change from time to time
Haahahaha

Ah, another one

2009-05-02T09:20:00.000-07:00

Or should I take A-levels?

Haha, snoop around time...
Ask around, see see, hear hear
Then, utter demolition of opposition
NOT

So it's
Accounts, journalism or A-levels?
Meh...

Decisions, decisions

2009-04-30T09:53:00.000-07:00

Where to go?
What to find?
Is this right?
Will it be alright?

Not out of my mind
Just putting it in rhyme
My mind has arrived
To a conclusion, just in time

Er, forget it
Rhyming at the dead of night is hard
Brain's not so active
Hm, decisions
Actually still can't be 100% sure
Hahaha
Accountings, or journalism?

Insatiable

2009-04-27T21:08:00.000-07:00

Just watched a few videos from YouTube
Stunned by people around the world
How far they are in ahead
I want to be where they are standing
Ahead of them, if possible

Can I get there?
I thirst for it, I want more of what I want
This country can't give me what I want
I feel insatiable

F5-ed

2009-04-26T11:14:00.000-07:00

A minor extra info for people who are thinking:
"What's F5?" "Title doesn't make sense"
To know what the button F5 does
Simply click on it NOW

Refreshing my blog
A new start for myself and, wait
All these sound yoga
Meh, whatever

Like this template LOTZ
Simple and clean
Not too much of a hassle
Nice and easy, yeah

Either way, starting afresh, just wanna
Get out of those stupid emo thoughts

*Following content may contain profanity*
*Parental discretion is advised*

DAMN emo thoughts!
Stop dragging me down!!
... Yea, something like that?
Why parental discretion?
Huh, some people consider damn as vulgar
So, well, that's that

To hit it off, just wanna post this song, it rocks
Kinda explains what I wanna say

Toby Mac - "Getaway Car"

I'm staring unaware cause I'm in the zone
It moves in like a fog on a seaside road
Paralyzed by the signs and the deafening tone
I'm on a lock like a jock with a broken bone
I can see the real game and I want to get in it
I can read your headline and I am dying to spin it
Man down in the clutches of his own desire
I got to find the kind of speed that will put out a fire

Chorus:
I need a getaway car, I gotta get out of here fast and far
I need a getaway car, I wanna flea what I see, wanna be where you are
I need a getaway car, I gotta get out of here fast and far
I need a getaway car

I put my hand on the wheel before I change my mind
I put my foot to the floor and I start to fly
I keep my eyes on the road so I don't get spun around
To the nightmare I've been delivered from
It's a brand new day, I drove hard all night
I thank God for the sun as it starts to rise
I take a peek in the mirror and my past is gone
I'm feelin' free as a bird with a new song

Now I ain't gonna stop 'til I find your peace
I gotta get to the place where it's you and me
So fill'er up now, and let's roll
Gonna drive through the night 'til you touch my soul
Said I ain't gonna stop 'til I find your peace
I gotta get to the place where you're all I need
So fill'er up, let's roll
I'm gonna drive through the night till you touch my soul

Let's ride all night, let's shift this thing into overdrive

So yea, like what the chorus said
I NEED a getaway car
I think everyone needs one
When the time comes, that is
Haha, just think about it

Been awhile

2009-04-14T11:00:00.000-07:00

It has been awhile since I last came here
Typing I mean
This place is so dead it rocks
I can spam whatever I want

Passed my driving exam...
I'm now a legit driver
Haha, well, not till I get my license actually
Still, you get the point

Not feeling too happy though
Coz' again I messed things up, lol
I expect myself to be wiser by now
Guess not...
Sigh
Oh well, what can I do?
I'm not the only hard-headed one now, haha
Prepare to watch football later
Over and out

Earth Hour?

2009-03-30T20:02:00.000-07:00

What's up with Earth Hour?
I mean, it's all good with the trying to help the Earth part
Hm, okay, change
What's up with Earth Hour in Malaysia?
Seriously unreal

They posted in the papers showing the towers
KLCC and KL Tower without lights at that time
The best part is, the towers are still partially lighted
And it's not just a light or two, it's a whole lot of them
Then the nearby buildings aren't even into this whole fiasco
And I saw from Bukit Jalil that the nearby residential areas
They didn't even really offed their lights

Bluntly put, Earth Hour in Malaysia failed
Still, those who participated, much heartfelt appreciation
Coz, you guys showed that there are still people who cared
Well, in this country, at the least
The advertising of this event wasn't really done well
Probably a poster here and there
A page in the papers, at most?
Then there's the once in a blue moon TV ad
I don't really think the government was 100% into it
Probably just some certain parties or individuals involved
For what sake, I don't know, hopefully for Earth's

Anyways, hope Malaysians pull themselves together next year
And seriously devote themselves to this whole thing
Else, what's the point?
Stop putting up a farce and get real with Earth Hour, dammit
We only have one Earth, fools

Vroom-ing is relatively easy

2009-03-26T00:08:00.001-07:00

Vroom-ing is relatively easy
What is vroom-ing?
What are you, some sort of degenerated being?

Again
Driving is relatively easy
Mastery around 69% already
Note: Basic Mastery, does not include racing techniques

Bored
Bye bye

Boredom FTW

2009-03-20T22:28:00.000-07:00

Bored
Sluggish
Hahahahaha

Patience is a good thing
Idiocy is not
Combine idiocy and patience?
Explosion of disaster in life

Feel like I took the wrong step
They want something odd to be a part of them
To encourage more odd ones to join, so that odds won't be odd
Still, the products aren't meant for odds to do
What's the point?
To diminish the oddity that is left in odd ones?
Or to have a laugh out of it?
I don't know
I am no longer interested in this organization
Nothing has changed
Probably nothing will
Maybe I was just being positive to myself
Whatever
I have to go
To this organization now
Although my heart is still here
Sigh
Blasphemy

So, now what?

2009-03-18T19:37:00.000-07:00

SPM results came out
A long time ago... Last week?
Anyways results were like
5A 3B 1G
Excluding 1119 English, if were to include I have 6A

Anyways
What to do next?
Everyone is going to college or university
But my chosen path somehow seems pathetic
And does not guarantee a solid future
But I do sense affirmation somewhere inside
That this is going to work out fine

People push me for answers
Answers to satisfy their need-to-know
But I do not have answer
All I have is this feeling
Hm...
I do not know what will happen in the future
But I know it'll be alright
Is this fair enough for you?

Madness Cycle

2009-03-09T20:10:00.000-07:00

After watching Watchmen yesterday
And no, I'm not sounding anyhow gay
It just put my mind into motion
This is probably why I blurred out later
Maybe

As the title suggests
We have a Madness Cycle
Yes, I took the liberty of using the word madness here
Why?

Humans are so simple
We want something that we do not have
Yet the ways we accomplish our goals of obtaining that something
That's the complication of, well, almost everything

Let me think up of some examples

When the world was caught up in World Wars
Leaders of different countries had their own thoughts set
Set on the benefits obtainable by winning the war
Massacred the civilians, who held no same vision of the leaders
The people who "had too much war" wanted peace
Protests, demonstrations, peace talks
Blah blah blah, everything took its place in helping build peace
And so wars end, peace came, chaos stopped

After peace had come, people start adjusting their views to different wants
Land, oil, political support... Ranging from anything to everything...
And so, seeking to gain the things they want, out they go again
Campaigns, talk shows, interviews, whatever they can think of
Madness strikes again, supporters come to, well, support
An opposition is formed, two forces collide

First, a non-physical war is formed
Words thrown, blackmails, framing others and all the nonsense by the load
Tension built, rage consume, fear invoked
Then, the supporters come in to the brawl
Oppositions have their own groups of supporters
Each of which have probabilities of f-a-n-a-t-i-c-s
And so, these crazy ones start a mild-physical war
Whacking the opposition's supporter
Strike back, vengeance, retribution

All these goes on, and now 2 scenarios might take place
First one is the country goes to war with itself
A party fights the opposition and so on
Well, you get the picture
Another one is a foreign country, or foreign countries butt in
Why do the foreign countries butt in?
For their own benefits, what else?
Gaining political strongholds or for the money, you decide

And all these cycle back to the start
Heck, details aside, this is the gist of it

People die for other people who use them for selfish reasons
Those who died, are they noble, or foolish?
I don't know
Ideals vary according to mindset
And people of different backgrounds think differently
So "just" and "good" ideals may be "foolish" and "weak"

Anyhow, coming back to the madness, how can we put an end to this?
Actually, it's pretty much impossible
Why?
Since when has people been fully content with what they have
And aim to fortify the "have"s they have?
Nope, we predate on others and take what isn't ours
We want more and more
We lost to our own nature
Funny, the last time I checked we were the smart ones on Earth

Humanity
Joke, or just a tragedy?
I don't know...
Hahahahaha

Games Un-Ltd.

2009-03-04T02:20:00.000-08:00

Gaaaahhh
Been in a craze for past few weeks
Ar tonelico craze, that is...
This game doesn't exactly dish out the best graphics
Nor does it give you great CGI and stuff
But heck, it's good
The storyline itself maimed plenty of other games
In my opinion of course, gahahahaha

Hm, first bought Ar tonelico 2
Felt great playing it, so went and bought Ar tonelico
So, been zombie-ing for past few weeks coz of these 2 games

If memory serves the year posed in the games was around 3000++
And apparently we no longer live on earth
Well, technically speaking, we do live on Earth, but not earth
Yeap, we're living on a floating continent
And it sounds so crazy, hahaha
We have no ocean and there are monsters all over
Wow, that's whacked

Of course, I don't think this game poses as a reference for mankind's future
Because, we can't cast magic by singing
Yes, they cast magic by singing
And in Ar tonelico 2, they can make life flourish by singing too

Putting this aside, I'm still into gaming at places where others can gather
Where we can all save the world from a horrible disease or infection
Or where we can shoot down crazy communists, well, no offence...
Yes, I still like to play FPS, L4D anyone??

Hm, now, let's talk about something else...
Ah yeah, the youths are having futsal games every Sunday
So kinda fun too, sports and stuff...
Still, sensitive issues may arise from such leisure activities
Where people that can dish out rough, but can't really take in rough
Tend to go haywire and turn into "Madness? This is SPARTA!!"-mode

Hm, yeah, I get pissed off at times too
But hey, at least I can get over them
Still, it's funny...

Last Sunday I made a legit tackle on someone
Then this person of course, seeing I'm already there, did not stop running
I got the ball, then since he did not stop, he tripped over my leg
Wow, something fantastic happened then
This dude sounded as if he wanted to start a fight
Of course, a lot of people got the mouth but got no guts
So nothing happened
Of course, my memory serves that this person tried something
He tried to kick the ball, short-range, to me
Wow, talk about vengeance, haha
Hm, yes, some would say the whole thing is my fault
And I'm not pushing all the blame to him
Let's run things through...

He got the ball, I defend
I put out my leg, he did not stop
I stopped the ball first, but since he did not stop, he tripped over my leg
I got a legal tackle, but he got pushy and blah blah blah
Then I almost got maimed by a ball he kicked short-range

Hm, let's see...
Fine I tripped him, my bad
But he didn't stop running, so the big trip is partly his fault too
And wow, he thinks he's the only one who suffered pain
My leg was swollen afterwards, does the big jerk know that?
I couldn't even walk properly, dumb jack
Oh yeah, and apparently he fell on someone
This I do not know because after he tripped I tended to my leg
Hm, don't play gung-ho if you can't take gung-ho
Yeah, that's about it

And if any smarties out there say that I should apologize
Let me say there is no point in apologizing
When the fault of the whole matter is pushed to me
Coz I don't really enjoy being a black sheep no more

Wow, venting anger in words and in plain sight
At least I ain't some chicken who dare not speak directly
Hm, feeling tad better
Whatever...

What's with all the...

2009-01-24T08:08:00.000-08:00

I've heard people asking
Why my blog is empty
Like, no pics
And I would like to say
I'm being who I am
So, deal with it
(And I'm too lazy, anyways, heh...)

Anyways, Chinese New Year is coming up
"Cho Yat" should be...
Wait, checking the calendar...
Uh, tomorrow, Monday...
So that means today have to go eat "Tuan Yuan Fan"
... Heh...

Actually, always wondered about...
We always say "Happy Chinese New Year" during this time of the year
How come we never say something like
"Happy Western New Year" or something
"Happy Indian New Year" maybe?
I dunno... Juz seems totally... weird...
New Years promote racism!?
Lol...

I'm too lazy to even write one...
Meh...
Outta here...

Lazy PWNAGE

2009-01-19T23:56:00.000-08:00

Since I'm so lazy
Let me make a summary of everything

January, went for YES
A camp that lasted about 2 weeks
One verdict, go and experience it yourself
No point saying this or that
Coz' the experience is inexplicable
So, get your bum off the chair and start planning for next YES

Then went and work at Shining Star
A place of seeming cuteness and obedience
Well, in photos that is...
Reality?
Mission : Drag and comfort crying kids
Duration : Who knows? Maybe 8am ~ 12pm?
Predictability : Really volatile, kids may cry anytime
Verdict?
Well, it's not that strenuous
If you are alright with kids
And can handle yourself...

Alright, summary done.
If not satisfied, please contact the owner, me.
Mwuahahaha~

Not here

2009-01-04T08:17:00.001-08:00

I won't be here
Around, lingering
Loathing, rotting

I'll be gone
Off at PJ
In BCM
Doing YES

I'll most probably be reminiscing
About stuff
And stuff alone is enough
To make me go bonkers
Not that it would make a difference

I suppose
I'm hoping that
YES would divert my attention
Take away my remaining focus
From stuff to YES things...

Haiz...
No difference
Made or altered
Right?

Kenneth shoots and maims Bahamut!

2008-12-23T19:25:00.001-08:00

Bored...
Really bored...
How can I depict this boredom in words...
Wow...
I'm so bored I'm talking about nothing...

Sheesh...
Anyways today the youth caroling team will be moving out
With 2 groups of 20 people respectively
We will be raiding(or not) two hotels
PJ Hilton and Renaissance

Hm, having a bit of the flu bug here...
Wonder if it'll be done by 2pm...
Zzz...
Anyhow, after the end of today
Time will bring about tomorrow
Which is Christmas
Which is a commemoration date for our Lord's birth
Which happened way before 25th of December at that time
Which many of the feeble humans do not know
Which is really intriguing because they celebrate for no reason
This season which we feel plenty of joy
And they go about giving presents, thinking that's what to be done

Lest we realize our foolish mindset of Christmas
Our minds and hearts will never truly feel
The true joy of Christmas
w00t!?
Nonsense-mode offline...

Anyways, not to say giving stuff during Christmas is wrong
In my opinion, the act of giving during Christmas
Is probably a reenactment of Jesus giving his life
Without wanting anything in return
I mean, he didn't say
"I'll be crucified for all of your sins, so you MUST entrust your life to me"
No, he just did it and left the choice to us
The choice of whether to give him our lives or not to
So, that's almost like what we do in Christmas, no?
We give, and leave the choice of whether the other person
Wants to give us a present or not
Although, I seriously doubt that people ever gave a thought about this
That is why, I find humanoid intelligence to be of no significance
Sigh...
Then the job of giving was left to this fat old guy in red...
Who seriously has a drinking problem, since he has the beer-belly
And laughs "ho-ho-ho" as though he's high or something...

Anyhow, this year's Christmas musical is mentioning what I did
The problem is, people are so oblivious and arrogant
That they do not understand the meaning of the whole play
They have only scratched the surface of the musical
Which is about family values and trusting in God
There are so many more values
Of which I'm not sure if the directors noticed when they wrote it...
Bah, whatever...
I'm thinking of matters too deep...
Should relax... Later caroling...

Fine, I bid you humans farewell...
Until another time...

Idling...

2008-12-22T23:11:00.000-08:00

Playing Kingdom Hearts: Chains of Memories
The PS2 version...
Hm, the battling system is kinda tougher
Since you have to make sure you're alive
While swapping through cards and creating combos...

I learned how to talk deeper through this game
Examples:
If you have forgotten that you forgot,
maybe there is nothing to remember in the first place.
If you try to remember something that you did not forget,
then your memories will lie to you.
You will not forget what that is not real,
how then will you know if you have forgotten something,
or if you still remember it at all?

Whee, who said gaming is non-beneficial?

Randomness

2008-12-18T08:19:00.000-08:00

Sitting while eyes gazed
At the stars, still amazed
Forgetting dreams, now awake
Shuddering, dazed
Gone are many a days
Forever, lost in time's maze
Still, recovering with His grace
Giving all glory to His name
Now knowing life isn't the same
Hoping that it stays that way
He moves on, living out his days

Hm, since Wen Qi put poem
I also try try lol...
I guess it's a cry of my own
But, whatever, just hope people would enjoy it
And... yeah, whatever, lolz...
Keepin' it real here

Bored

2008-12-15T01:45:00.000-08:00

Bored at home
Bored like w00t
...
...
...
Rotting
Corroding
Rusting
Anything

ERgh...
*SYSTEM MALFUNCTION*
*BRAIN DEACTIVATING*
...
...
...
...
...
...
...
*BRAIN ONLINE*
*READYING SYSTEMS*
*ERROR*
*ERROR*
*ERROR*

w00t w00t w00t w00t w00t
BORED!

Rumble...

2008-12-14T08:44:00.000-08:00

Emotions are real funny lolz...
A moment you're feeling like maybe, angry or happy or whatever...
And the next moment, you notice that you've changed
A 180 degrees altogether

Although it doesn't make any sense
Yet we just cling on and indulge ourselves
In our newly developed emotion
Only to gain consciousness gradually
And start scripting thoughts in your mind
Regarding the abrupt change of emotion
Ending in total self-disgust
Why?
Because we finally make sense of that change
And we find it inappropriate

Am I making sense?
Hope so...

My thoughts drive my emotions
And my thoughts are ever so dark, else emo, in today's lingo
These thoughts in turn drive me to be sad
Worst part of this is, these thoughts don't make no logical sense
They're all presumptions
Or you might interpret it as "think too much"

Yes yes... Knowing the problem isn't enough
I have to solve it
I'd like to quote Joel's famous response about this:
"What lah, you think so easy is it?"
Generating presumptions is pretty much my reflex action
Sorta... I mean, it happens REAL quick

Sadly I indulge myself in these thoughts
And this quickly turns me into an "Anti-People" person
Well, not all... But, for those who knows me... You get the picture...

Whew, typing about my bad stuff isn't easy...
Admittance is a step to correction, so they say?

Wonder when will I be in control of my thoughts
Instead of my thoughts having control over me?
Time to rumble with them, haha...
Still, I wonder
What will I think when I am fully awake
And notice that I've written this post when I was all blur?
Heh...

Lol...

2008-12-10T21:12:00.000-08:00

Liking this song a lot...
Somebody's Watching - Toby Mac

Ohhh,
Watch baby, watch baby, I got it like that
Watch baby, watch baby, so I got it like that

Suggestions, questions
People want to know
Is there life after talk
Cause there's talk on the road
Twistin' words that I've never even said
To the ones that I trust
Or my boo in our bed
Will he make it, man I bet he won't
As they're runnin' through the minutes
On their cell phones
So the picture's painted
You got the point
And that junk's creepin' into my solo joint

Sometimes I feel God in the middle of the night
In the cool of the shade in the bright sunlight

(Chorus)
I always feel like somebody's watching me
Watch baby, watch baby, He got my back
See I'm down with the King
So I got it like that(x2)

It's no joke, I've been roped in
Chokin' on a bone
From a fish in the school of your twilight zone
You shook me, took me to another place
Where the air I'm breathin's like mace in my face
If this controversy is your way
You need to know I'll never down my destiny
'Cause I'm stickin' to my guns like a
Son of the Light
Feelin' Dad, I'm feelin' Daddy in the air tonight

Sometimes I feel grace in the middle of the night
In the cool of the shade in the bright sunlight

Sometimes I feel God in the mist of the show
as the palm trees sway at an afterglow

Chorus(x3)

Toby Mac, sometimes I feel grace in the middle of the night,
Toby Mac, sometimes I feel God in the middle of the night,
Toby Mac, sometimes I feel God, sometimes I feel grace,
Sometimes I feel God in the middle of the night, in the middle of the day
In the middle of the night, Toby Mac

I always feel like somebody's watching me
I always feel like somebody's watching me
(Watch baby, watch baby, He got my back
See I'm down with King so I got it like that.) [x 4]

Toby Mac.

Catch the innuendo?
No?
Let's just say the second verse is aimed at those hypocrites out there
Who are the hypocrites I have no idea...
Seriously!
They're really good at covering each others' backs, haha
Whoever they are, I don't really care
But if you're conjuring words that I never even said
Watch it, God's watching XD

Oookayy... Now to set that off aside...
Caroling sessions will be resuming as planned
Since the bosses (lol?)
Will be returning from HUGE camp today
So, hope we'll be ready for this Sunday's Leisure Mall thing...
Still have to hunt for :
Black belt, black shoes
And white gloves? For another purpose or reason...
Ahh... Tired...
Cynical am I.

PSP mania?

2008-12-07T18:39:00.000-08:00

Arghh...
Gotta get myself a PSP...
I'm getting more and more Sony-oriented...

Midnight-"something"
Racing game...
Couldn't care much about the name
Since I'm too busy trying to "fly-car"
Driftttt my precioussss driiffftttt....
Mwuahaha...

And... Luxor...
Crazy game, yet entertaining
Maybe it's because I hate losing?
Damn... Should have focused...
So many distractions yesterday, heh...

Then there's Loco Roco...
That yellowish jello-ball?
Or is it some sort of... I dunno >_>
But it's cute, I'll give you that
"Join! Join! Join!"
Argh... Crazy little game >_>

And of course... DJMax...
Those music rock...
It's like summoning something from within me...
What the? Am I being cult-ish?
LOLZ....

Anyways, bro and sis going for HUGE
Staying back here...
Lolz... I'm the king of the house... for now >_>
Out...

Rusting

2008-12-05T00:40:00.000-08:00

Rusting at home
Gathering moss too
Arghhhhh

Anyways I guess the caroling team made it
We passed the Renaissance Hotel's inspector
Haha... I wonder how we sound like
Since I'm standing at the back
And pretty much trying to focus on :
Conductor, own voice and other guys
Have no idea how the whole team sounds like...
Heh...

I want money...
But I want a job that has flexible time?
Lol... Susah la like this... Heh...

Lazy to write about anything...
Meh...
Whatever >_>
Waiting for the coming weeks...
Let's get the whole December over with...
Yawn...

Was tagged by some...

2008-11-30T05:45:00.000-08:00

Was tagged by some....one
Known as Wilson
Who is most of the time perasan
And I can go on talking about his bad sides
But he'll most probably choke me or whatever, so...
Heh, moving on...

Was tagged and asked to write down 5 things i want for Christmas...
Anything at all right... So...

1.) Arm and Leg weights (metal detachable type)
2.) Shinobigatana (Google or Wiki it...)
3.) Sony Ericsson W980i (Flip-phones rule)
4.) Latest game consoles (PS3, Xbox 360, PSP etc etc...)
5.) Redemption (for my mistakes)

Whatever... Above are probably random stuff...
Thinking of buying Nike stuff to wear
Mwahahaha~
Expensive...
Better buy while there is a sale going on
I'm poor, y'know >_>

Switchfoot - Dare you to move

2008-11-29T04:22:00.000-08:00

Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Everyone's here
Everyone's here
Everybody's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next?
What happens next?

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before

Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance
The tension is here
The tension is here
Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be, yeah

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened

Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself
To lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened before

God give me the strength and courage
to move on as if today never happened before
Thank you. amen.

Another post...

2008-11-29T01:51:00.001-08:00

Today went for last day of YET, which stands for
Youth Enrichment Training
I know it's wrong to talk bad about a man of God
But, I really can't feel anything
Out of today's speaker

I found it distasteful, probably still find it so
That someone who's supposed to be talking about God
Somehow made God revolve around his life instead
Per say, "my life my life my life... then God"
Or "I was the top of my class... I was etc etc... then God"
Somehow he talked more about himself than about God
For that, I couldn't really accept his preachings today

I mean, yeah, he memorizes a great deal of the Bible
But, anyone could memorize a book
It takes a blessed someone to live it out
In others' eyes he might seem to be living it out all right
He himself did not apply one truly common thing
This is something people say not to do in our faith
Not only in our faith, but in common human society too
Which is being boastful and proud

I'm not sure if he feels proud
But the way he talks, pretty much is boasting...
Seriously, even some others thought so
Check this site out to see what the Bible says about proud people
http://www.openbible.info/topics/proud_people

Well, most of the verses are talking about it...
Anyway, I'm not despising his acts for God though
He did bring many to the light
As for his attitude, I'm not sure if God is thoroughly pleased
Or maybe he just doesn't know it sounds boastful
All in all, I am thankful many are led to the light because of him
For it is written, "Do not hinder him; for he who is not against you is for you."
Quoted from Luke 9:49
As found in here

Anyways, after the whole session
Went play basketball while waiting for my bro to go home
Felt so fun, kinda feel like picking up basketball again...
And badminton too, let's not forget about that...

Anyways, before I left, I tried waving goodbye
Although I did not talk, I tried to wave...
Took me as much courage to do so
Still, I guess I was ignored...
Meh... I guess that's life...

After SPM?

2008-11-28T01:03:00.000-08:00

Usually people would write about "whee, SPM is over, blah blah blah..."
No, so what if SPM is over?
It made me think about stuff for awhile...

After the English for Science and Technology paper
Apparently lots of people went celebrating and all
So I just walked home with a couple of friends
Whom I just bumped into, did not plan to walk together before that...

Anyways, point was...
As I was walking
Yes, the thought of freedom and the benefits of freedom
The thought of being able to relax and everything just came into my mind
True, they were pleasant
But my focus was reinstated to a less-thought-of problem : future

Since I've chosen to stop schooling and skip Form 6
This means that I'll be skipping UEC
And my whole secondary school life I've been taught this :
How to continue your studies or life after UEC
So I was practically battling with an unknown future
I chose to follow my ideals and passion
And numerous individuals have spoken out against my thoughts
Saying that I'll have a hard time making a living in the future

And since I've finished SPM, which means I'll be 18 next year
Plenty of responsibilities will befall upon my shoulders
I will have to come out of my lazy shell, a hard task for me, yes...

I'll have to strive harder in order to accomplish my ideals
My body might be at a breaking point at times in the near future
And I know my spirit and soul will both have a hard time
In trying to reawaken my flesh in running the race I have chose to run

All in all, I am now walking in an unknown path
And my guides are my good brothers and sisters in Christ
Though I may wander off path sometimes, they will help me find my way again
And of course, the Almighty God will be there
He has placed a track for me to run
And I will run in it, until one day I hear Him say to me
"Well done, my child. You have done well indeed"

Oh well... Serious stuff off my shoulder
Whew!
Now waiting till 6pm
Coz....
It will be "SPONGEBOB ATLANTIS SQUAREPANTIS" time!!
Wheee...
Know what? Spongebob rules, hahaha

Torture >_>

2008-11-23T04:37:00.000-08:00

Keeping my word...
On remaining silent...
Never knew it could be so agonizing...

Worst torture I've ever gone through
But must hold on...
I've gave my word... And I intend to keep it...
Torture!!!
So many things to say and ask...

Oh well... Not that it'd mean anything to them people...
Bet that whatever I've said most of them are forgotten
Sigh... This sucks
Haha... Lolz...

In doubt?

2008-11-22T02:00:00.000-08:00

In doubt?
As in having problem in believing in anything
Otherwise can be translated as having disbeliefs

Those who are in constant doubting attitude
For example, me
Life isn't as pretty as it should turn out to be
You're hesitating all the time of your course of action
Example : SPM, you're in doubt and you can't focus, then stress

Lolz... Just an example
That only happened to me once...
Just let go and live life
Even if your doubts come true
You can't do nothing about it
That's the way of life
No turning backs

Hmph... Though doubts may seem like it'll turn out to be
Skeletons in your closet
Just, forget it
Present perpetuates your future
And if you're worrying about your future
You're therefore annihilating your present
And thus changing your future
Probability of it turning ugly
Is definitely dominating the probability of it turning out good

Huh, nonsense posts
Just relieving myself
And assuring myself of what to do
Ignore if you will
Mwahahaha
Aston Villa, feel the wrath of Manchester United
Tomorrow morning kickoff at 1.30 a.m.
Feel like watching... Hmph, time for small nap then...

In a fight

2008-11-20T09:04:00.000-08:00

Yeah, I'm in a fight
However...
It's not violence or inappropriate stuff
It's what everyone goes through, well, maybe everyone
Fighting with yourself

Struggling to change
Wrestling with the inner me
Currently I'm being dead-locked by the inner me
Trying to break free
If I do break free
I will pummel drive the inner me so hard he'll kiss the roofs
Not making any sense?
Yeah, that's the whole point
I don't make sense in stuff I talk about, mwahahaha

Sleep time
Adios?

Moral is demoralizing

2008-11-18T02:59:00.001-08:00

Memorize : 36 nilai + 36 definitions

Total = Headache + urge to kill

...
Moral is the worst and lamest subject ever.
Done.

Lolz...

2008-11-17T08:52:00.000-08:00

Haha
Confusion strikes again

I can't find myself to be who I think I am or thought I was

Am I a freak?
Am I a sicko?
Am I smart?
Am I funny?
Am I kind?

Hahaha I think I've lost track of who I am already
I guess I listened to too much stuff
I became "others thoughts"

Who am I really...
Zzz

...

2008-11-17T07:24:00.000-08:00

I feel like the lowest of worms
The total opposite of cream of the crop
A jerk, if you will

This sucks
Immaturity sucks
Arguments suck
I suck

Feel like skipping Moral paper tomorrow
Since I've stooped to the lowest of the low
No point in taking it
... Not forgiven still
Being ignored

Again...

2008-11-16T05:25:00.000-08:00

Why do I always mess up my life?
Relationships, time spent and everything...
Today I finally experienced something common
But I'm not sure if it is what it is

After saying things to people
Which I regret truly...
I felt despair... Or maybe it was something else?
The feeling was overwhelming
I did not feel like taking my exams tomorrow
I did not feel like living anymore
I actually stopped thinking for a long while
I sat in front of the computer doing nothing
Absolutely nothing

It was terrifying
The feeling was about to swallow me whole
As though my life had come to an end
I never knew despair or whatever it is can come to such a point
A point that you feel as though your life never had a meaning to it
You are a miscreant
A disaster of everything that can ever happen
I thought I had gone crazy
It felt like so too

I really wanna amend the things I have said
But alas I cannot say that I have never said such things
I wanna say I'm sorry
But I think it has happened too frequently and I have said it too much
I'm really at point blank here
I feel like just sitting in front of the computer here
And do nothing
Forever
And ever

If the person whom I've tried to apologize to sees this
Know that I really mean it
I do not know what came over me during the incident
For what had happened and what I have said
I hate myself
Truly
I am really sorry
So truly terribly sorry
May you find it in your heart to forgive me

Falling Down

2008-11-11T09:54:00.000-08:00

I know I'm not supposed to be here at this point of time
What more it is my examination period...

However I guess I just wanna say out my grievances here...

OH GOSH...
Sejarah is fantastically horrible...
Subjective part has such a wide array of questions
And the endless streaming of questions from books...
I think I might be felled by this subject...

As for BM I'm not so sure...
Hoping that I'll get an A...

Oh yeah, Sejarah objective got 34 corrects...
Feel so wasted as the subjective part will most probably tear my results apart
Why oh why?
Haha...
I wonder... If I'm letting anyone down?
Maybe just myself...

Life's short...
Wasted here...
Good night...

One as infinity, infinity as one

2008-11-08T04:38:00.000-08:00

What do I mean by the title?
I'm not really sure, just a spark in this old brain of mine
So, felt like writing something...

I felt as though the world is way too subjective
We define a specific something with a name
Per say, I'm typing in a language called English
We may also try to explain things in our own ways
Ways that we think are right, because they make sense to us
For example... We breath in oxygen, so we are alive

I wonder, what would happen if we could just forget everything
Everything, as in every single piece of detail we know
All that is called knowledge
That which we call wisdom
Just throw it all aside, won't we be dealing with something infinite?

By regarding something through our own understanding
Which is limited by the capacity of our lowly human capabilities
We are turning something infinite into one
Who knows, maybe what we thought was wacky before
Could actually come real, now that we've broken the barrier of human understanding
Turning back from one to infinite

I'm probably whacked right now...
Since I'm blabbering like a crazy guy who hasn't really gotten medical attention
But then, who am I to say?
Maybe I'm not whacked
Maybe I'm speaking like a true genius

Go figure, people

Wu Liao

2008-11-06T18:52:00.000-08:00

There are ups and downs in life, aren't there?
So when you're down, or maybe it's just me
Sometimes there's the wondering of whether it's all futile
Like a dream you try to grab on and hold tight
But in the end, it's all a fantasy
Destined to fade, vanish, into thin air

Yes, comforting ourselves with such hypocrisy
To rise up from our Fall
Only to drop deeper into the pit when your imaginations
Reveal that it's nothing more than a shade of lies
Would we rather wake up to find such devastating truth?
Or would we just resort to damaging ourselves with the truth
To suffer less damage that will be inflicted upon us?

Even if we journey to seek the truth
All in just to bring an end to the possible torments
How can we deny the probability
Of going through more pain in the process of doing so?
Isn't it just crazy?
We seek to end pain by going through pain
Oh the irony...

So, why can't people just be honest at times
When others are saying or inquiring for them to tell the truth
Consider this : They have prepared themselves in all ways
To face the worst possible truth
One that you might throw at them in their face
Why can't they just do so?
Probably because of self-justification
Of mercy and pity, wanting to prevent the other entity from suffering
Little do they know there are scenarios
That end up having the other entity going through more pain and agony

Such is the cycle of life for me
Seeking the truth is never easy
Neither is waiting for something to be fruitful
Aye, life's just like a bumpy ride
Even when it says you're riding on the highway
Tch, what a pain...

SPM?

2008-10-29T05:51:00.000-07:00

Okay, I'm doing a bit of revision
Slow in progress
Really...

Coz' I'm reading and reading, then...
"Oops, what's that thing again arh?"
*Flips back/looks back*
Ohh...
And this continues to happen indefinitely

Then today I sort of got waken up
When a friend said
"So? If you keep on doing that you'll never finish your revision"

Sometimes, I wonder why people say I'm smart >_>
When I mess up something as simple as this
Haha...
Going back to read

...

2008-10-28T05:09:00.000-07:00

为人极善
只会摧毁自己
当个白痴

当了这么多年
当然了解啦
永远都是最后

Unwell

2008-10-27T06:51:00.001-07:00

Okay...

I've officially gone sick
I think

After I eat I feel like kinda wanna puke
And there's that weird nauseating feeling...

I'm starting to eat less (Hallelujah)
Not coz I don't wanna eat
But it's coz I'm easily stuffed now

My mom said probably it's coz I'm not taking regular meals
So the stomach complaining
Lolz?

Anyways I kinda almost always feel like puking already
And it's kinda irritating
Coz it feels like very close to puking
But nothing comes out
Blah

Dunno why
If anyone knows what is this all about tell me lah
Over and out

... Gay

2008-10-26T09:21:00.000-07:00

Yes, I'm gay...
...
...
...
...
As in happy, glad, joyful
So whoever got the wrong idea, go see councilor

It's weird
As I've said earlier
Life is like a roller coaster ride
Now I'm on the up-side

Oh yeah, Chelsea, eat your heart out
Liverpool wins on Chelsea's home ground!!
1-0...
Hm, intriguing thing is, after Daniel came, Liverpool started to suck...
Coincidence?

Anyways this will most probably lower Chelsea's morale...
Opening for Man. United!!
*Glory, glory Man. United!*
That's probably the only line I'll ever know how to sing...
Huh...

Anyways, that's not the main reason why I'm happy
It's funny
Coz' it's like an immediate U-turn
I went to mamak with a very, very down-trodden mood
And now I'm like, revived?

Hahaha...

This is like something you enjoy tasting
It can turn you into someone moody or someone with joy
When you taste it, you want more, rite?
After you get more, you want even more...

Then when the time comes that there's no more left to taste
That's when you go into a breakdown
If it's temporary then you'll juz comfort yourself, saying it's ok
If it's permanent, you'll probably feel like it's the end of the world...

Just saying

Dumbest Day

2008-10-26T05:21:00.001-07:00

Life's really like a roller coaster ride...
You have ups
Then when you go down, it's all the way

Of course there are twists and turns
But you don't mind much about them
Coz the whole sickest part is the part where you
RUSH ALL THE WAY DOWN

Never hate a friend
Unless seriously they back stabbed you
Of course usually real friends won't do this lah
So, drop it (yay I did it)

There are no such things as others' fault
There's only your fault
Don't blame others and things will be over sooner and smoother

Even when friends make sick jokes
Maybe they're trying to cheer you up
So consider it for awhile
Unless you are short of a nerve like me
Of course, it takes time

I'm just sick of this day
I wanna erase it
But, hey, it's here
It's done
It's written in the slab of The Past
Let it be

Let's sing System of a Down's song

2008-10-26T05:01:00.000-07:00

Such a lonely day
And it's mine
The most loneliest day of my life

Such a lonely day
Should be banned
It's a day that I can't stand

The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life

Such a lonely day
Shouldn't exist
It's a day that I'll never miss
Such a lonely day
And it's mine
The most loneliest day of my life

And if you go, I wanna go with you
And if you die, I wanna die with you

Take your hand and walk away

The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
Life

Such a lonely day
And it's mine
It's a day that I'm glad I survived

Whooooooo
Glad that's all over

Impending Doom

2008-10-18T02:37:00.000-07:00

Impending doom...
SPM...
That's it...

I reviewed my trial papers' scores...
It's... seriously horrible

I kinda feel like strangling myself
Wait, it's suffocating, no then...

Well, jump from a high building?
Oh no, wait, I'll die... Not worth it...

Er... get crashed by a car?
What the? I might go into a coma and never wake up
Heck no...

Hm, drown?
Hold on, that's even worse than strangling myself, naw...

Well, you get the picture.
It's fantastically horrible...
Seriously, I gotta suck it up and just start focusing myself...
A hard and arduous path for someone like me >_>
Since I sort of have A.D.D. (IMO)
Haha...

Anyways, the scores are sort of like

Malay 58 (shock)
Moral 27.5 (died)
Sejarah 30+ (Fire in t3h H0lE!)
Chinese 61 (Well, yeah... fine by me >_>)
Maths 73 (Goofed at paper 2... *goes into seizure*)
English 81 (Careless and ignored novel notes... *gets crushed by anvil)
EST 89 (Comforting enough for me...)

So far that's about all the papers I've got...
Sigh...

Gonna get more serious...
But still not so serious...
Er, well, you get the point...

Exams' Aftermath

2008-10-15T03:45:00.000-07:00

Note: Exams does not equal SPM

School exams are over, so...
Went to Times Square today

Original Plan: Go home and slack off
In the End : Followed people go to T.S

Went there hang around...
Didn't expect to go, so didn't really bring $$

Consequence(s):
1.) I'm almost broke [Wallet only, relax]
2.) I starved... Well, sorta [had 2 McDonald Apple Pies]
3.) Frustrated [Juz tired]

Anyways, went there and caught a movie
It's Eagle Eye... So yeah...

Plot pretty much similar to Terminator
The whole "machine determines future" thing
Just that the future is kinda unknown and kinda like, in the present...
And there are no robots that come out and shoot at you
Of course, it controls the whole country's electronic devices
Provided they are connected to the internet or something...

So, felt kinda bored as the plot is almost the same as Terminator
But the difference is the way how destruction and mayhem are brought
And of course, how the "Evil Boss" was defeated (kinda... lame)
The effects and everything spiced up the show too, so, that's cool...

Oh yeah, when nearing the ending, the movie sort of defied logic...
Let's just say someone who fired a gun
In a room full of the country's most important people
Somehow managed to survive being shot at multiple times...
Nonsense...
Well, maybe not
Since 50 Cent sort of went through the same thing in reality...

DotA time...

Life is... what?

2008-10-10T07:49:00.001-07:00

Today I had to go see the either one of the disciplinary teachers
Why?
To check my hair and see whether it passes inspection
Oh... for the love of...
Anyways, I aimed for the "good" teacher and saw him there
So went in, told him came for inspection... waited...

... Oops, no list...
So he friggin asked the disciplinary master for the Senior 2 list
And since he was so free, the D.M inspected me instead
Of course, my hair was a wee bit longer than what the school allowed
Seriously, those who know me knows my hair is friggin like grass
So is short. Case closed.

But no~...
Some idiot who is so obsessed with power and had succumbed to it
Decided to say "Nope" and "Come back and check next time"

For the **** love of **** (Please use your imagination to fill in the stars)
It's already like the end of the year
And you're still being such a tightwad?

Okay, I'm not against authorities exercising their power in according to the rules
But for crying out loud, give me a break
It's friggin October man
Just another month or so and I'll be gone
Asta la vista- adios, vamoosed from your school

I do not know why some people after gaining authority
They will exercise it and disregard what their morality and heart tells them to do
And later on justify it as an act of righteousness
As they are acting in accord to the rules set by their predecessors
......
That means I gotta go cut... shorter...
Sometimes I wonder why don't we just shave it all off... *sigh*

Sometimes life is really... shitty (ignore the vulgarity displayed here)
Cuz stuffs like this happen, and when it comes to pass
Life goes back on to normal, hanging in the balance of shitty or not
If it ain't shitty, then it's probably cloud nine for us...
A never ending cycle of cruelty... Tsk tsk....

Meh... whatever...

Personality Test

2008-10-02T08:47:00.000-07:00

Ripped off the site from Charis' blog...
Took the test, some part true some part... Nah...

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

A-bout the education part...
Not really that much into academics
But if other form of intellectual gains are considered part of their means of education
Then maybe yesh....
Oh yesh, yesh... I like to add the "h" to the yes.... Yesh...

Anyways, again, out

Malemine...?

2008-10-02T08:34:00.000-07:00

Is Dutch Lady milk in Malaysia contaminated...?
Oh man...
I feel weird after drinking it
I mean, it's like I wanna barf but I can't and such...
Maybe it's because I drink it right after meals?
Or drinking it to quench my thirst but doesn't really work?
Ah, bummer

To Wilson:
Yeah yeah yeah, a win is still a win
Stop nagging, you're like an old man...
Geez...

To Digi:
Are you guys dope or trippin'?
Smokin' cracks musta've done this to your company...
"But some people insist on saying things like 'lightning never strikes twice'"
Oh for the love of...
Get your facts straight, fat ____ (Fill in the blank)
Plus you're using a foreign accent to do that advertisement...
Geez... When will idiots ever cease to amaze us?
Never?
Maybe they're trying to say Digi users are as dumb as them?
...... Nah.

Kinda worked up now, coz' slept in the afternoon
Manchester United kicking butt Saturday morning
If I'm not mistaken...

Oh well, outta this site...

Groggy...

2008-09-26T05:50:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow is Moral Paper...
Don't know what I'm doing sitting in front of the computer
Not doing any revision
Before and current...
And maybe after?... Not.

Will study later, juz read through
Pointless subject
I mean, you are only providing theories of how to have moral
Saying out what type of moral values are there
Anyways, it's not even a practical subject
It's like you're reading about Sports
All the rules and regulations, how to score and bla bla bla
And the problem is, you're only reading, not DOING IT
Malaysia's Board of Education got problem? Yes.

So then... someone say pray to God
Don't post here...
Then say post here...
Ish... Kacau and confusing me la this Fruit/Vegetable (Debatable)

Oh yah, aside from having problems in our country's education system
Apparently it has problems too in terms of religions...
Now now... I'm not gonna inflame my country
Actually what happened was
That during this month of Puasa-ing for them
Apparently they became hardcore and radical
They broadcast openly in my neighbourhood
"Allah akan maafkan dosa-dosa kamu, percayailah Allah"
Not the full details, but you get the point
I mean if any other religions even dare broadcast something similar
They'll be sued...
What's up with equality? None? Zilch? Nada? Opsss... Shhh...
Forget it...
Another act of noise pollution by humans... Hah...

Today had plans, but got problems loh
Haiz, rumours spread by someone, so no mood also...
At home play games...
Final Fantasy Crystal Chronicles - Rings of Fate rocks...
Final Fantasy Tactics Advance 2 - Grimoires of the Rift rocks too...

Going to study now...
Eat chocolate at same time...
Bored to bits...
Signing off...

Writing

2008-09-22T00:07:00.000-07:00

Just writing/typing down stuff...

Anyways, so yesterday went for badminton
Then played like mad, hahaha
Fun la in short...
Lost to Wilson in third set >_>
Next time rematch...
Leg got blister only... Grrr....

Then later went to BRJ for mamak and football
Lots of drama
Ronaldo flied
Chelsea faked
And then, draw....
Damn! How can Chelsea draw wif Manchester United?
Muz be a scam...
Referee smells fishy...

Even though was a draw, was still happy
Haha, many a factors
Until midnight I went to sleep, still happy
In short, happy till now lah
Lolz...

Sien... Off

Back to "Whatever-lah" mode

2008-09-07T02:11:00.000-07:00

I was so worried before about my SPM
And tried to be who I wasn't
And some other stuff

Today's sermon woke me up
I don't have to worry about SPM
Of course, I have to prepare for it... Else it's just plain madness
What I'm trying to say is
My scores and grades thus far are all fruits of my "Whatever-lah" attitude
If I let it go, who knows what will happen?

All I'm trying to say is, I don't give a dotdotdot about SPM
If God doesn't want me to have A's, so be it
All I have to do is just prepare for it, be satisfied with my own preparations
Walk into that hall, and do my best
Coz, if what I have in mind for me isn't what God wants me to be
Then, to _____(fill in the blank) with it
I'm doing what God wants me to do
If what God wants me to be or do requires A's
Then He'll give it to me, no?

Aaaannnddd... Yeah, that's pretty much it...
I believe we should all face exams with this attitude...
Or, whatever, haha

SLackinG

2008-09-05T07:23:00.000-07:00

Totally slacking...
No motivation at all to review studies...
Meh... Snail speed... Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Grinned as I typed in my blog's password
Haha, every time I type it, just can't help myself but to lighten up

Anyways, gotta buck up...
Else, I'm dead...

Slacking in writing blog also...
Meh...

Turn left? Turn right?

2008-08-29T08:38:00.000-07:00

Haha, too lazy to write Entry thingy anymore...
Out of the pictureeeee

So, as described by title...
Lost in seas of decisions....
To continue Form 6 or not... Haiz >_>
I've a guts feeling that not continuing Form 6 is alright...
But, logic and guts... Haiz >_>

And... Kinda noticed something
I'm the Out-not-In guy
Wanna say sorry to those who hear my nonsense all this while...
I've said and mentioned a lot of crap...
Can't help it... Juz felt like sayin' what I wanted to say
Well, I've laid lots of burden on others >_>
Regrets and emo >_>

Anyway, kinda feel like slapping myself for being so useless
I can't be serious most of the time, sorry for that
I don't make plans, sorry for that (especially to my brother >_>)
I don't sleep early, sorry... (to me and parents, haha)
Sorry for all the crap you all put up with lah >_>

Try to be better
But I still can't be serious, heh... sorry for that
Eh, so many sorries... Lol XD

Very empty post...
Well, waddya expect from someone who is sleepy?
Lolz... Out

Entry# 58 - I'm a human afterall

2008-08-25T10:09:00.000-07:00

I'm sitting in front of the computer
One o'clock in the morning
Head about to explode
Doing what?
...
...
...

It all started when I'm appointed in a group
To do a Powerpoint presentation
About what?
The Canadian Coniferous Forest
In all areas (regions, weather, animals, plants etc etc)

So the group leader (before holidays)
Apparently he did not even distribute duties to the other teammates
(Data acquisition and stuff like that)
And he gave me irrelevant data which he so-called
Took a frickin long time to find (trust me, the data is so little I think it only took 10 minutes)
Gave it to me, the one who volunteered to do the Powerpoint
Trying to give me a hard time performing impossible tasks

I've decided to not do it
Give up, ask the teacher for another week
Scold the leader and give out tasks myself
Before I go totally insane and weak in front of this screen

I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!

GOING TO BED NOW!
OVER!!

Entry# 57- Holidays...

2008-08-20T09:57:00.000-07:00

It's already reaching the end... *Groan*...
Anyway, gotta buckle up for trials... (maybe)

Okay, so today I went to school for some sort of seminar
About BM, how to score etc etc....
Cut long story short --> Bored

Been bored for very very long time...
Can't seem to be satisfied pawning people in DotA >_>
There is a slight blissful feeling...
However, that's not pure satisfaction
It's just a brief feeling of triumph...

Gotta start studying...
*groannn*...

Out...

Entry# 56- PLKN?

2008-08-16T08:44:00.001-07:00

To those who were chosen for PLKN...
Guess what...?
Wait, a moment of mourning....
...
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...
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Er-hem...

BANZAI! I'M NOT CHOSEN!!
Hahahahahhaa~

Wanted to shoot the rifle though, but, oh well...
I guess I just win some and lose some...
And, well, all e best for the "Chosen Ones"
Hahahahaha~

Bored...
Pawn too much people just now...
Over and out >_>

Tagged!... by a ******

2008-08-15T05:31:00.000-07:00

By the way, the ****** is = Friend
So, go figure...

The rules and regulations:
1. Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
2. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 15 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
3. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
4. No tags back!!

Huh... What should I start off with...

I'm actually quite patriotic (Just angry at some Malays for wasting tax money and etc)
I'm not thick-faced (muka tembok i'm not...)
I suck when it comes to dealing with females... (Most of the time)
I like to do some beatboxing when I'm alone
I don't cheat when it comes to stuff like this (check out Wilson's Tagged!...)
I actually passed up a blank test sheet recently (Haha...)
I like hugging (I mean, it's fun to cuddle, lol...)
I drank Coke every morning for six months when I was in Form 3 (I'm not diabetic)
My mind goes blank when it comes to the person I like... (Sigh...)
I like chocolates... White, Black, normal ones... You name it!
I enjoy my CG a lot even though I don't seem so...
I have a short fuse, yet somehow I can control it most of the time...
I'm afraid of hitting people, unless it's absolutely necessary
I'm afraid of bugs (not ants... Ok, ants, but it has to be in a swarm)
I hate being alone (Unless that other individual is really bugging me)

I guess that's about it...
I know I have to tag someone else...
But I don't really know anyone... So whatever...
And, well, I guess others are just as lazy as well to finish this...
So, I'll do everyone a favour, heh...

Over, and Out

Entry# 55- Passion

2008-08-04T06:51:00.000-07:00

Went to Passion World Tour yesterday at Sunway...
Well, sorta...

Started off by me not wanting to go...
Then found out kinda lots of people going...
So, got a ticket from Joyce Tang...
Then, pissed off my bro by doing last minute arrangements (sorry)

Well, anyway, felt uber-guilty then...
Later had lunch with my bro, Joshua Johnathan, Caleb, Xan En and Slacker (Daniel Lim, who went home after lunch, LOL) at McDonalds in Taman Midah
Learned that:
-Xan En don't drink no Coke, just Sprite (He does, just that he doesn't like it)
-Daniel don't eat no vege (I knew that, but even burgers? Wow... Lol!)
-Spicy Chicken McDeluxe is good (Oh duh? Of course, BigMac and others rock too)

Then, parted ways with Daniel, and went to Sunway...
So there were me, my bro, Xan En, Caleb and Joshua...
After parking, regrouped with Joel and others...
And after sorting things out or something, headed to the conference room thingy to get our wristbands (entrance verification thingy)

Well, here is where everything started
IT WAS INSANE
Only like 4pm, and a big bunch of people were already there
Plus, the thing wasn't even until 6pm
Haha...

Anyway, to cut the long story short (the story which I misjudged American lollipops for cheap Malaysian ones, for full details ask Hai Yen, sob)
Went in, got ourselves some seats, even though there were primitive beings leaping across chairs to get front seats near the stage (when will they learn the blessing will be there no matter where you sit? Sitting nearer to the stage isn't gonna give you bonus blessings or something... Or were they just idolizing? Hmm...)

After getting our seats, went down with Daniel Quah to get some water for some of us...
Which reminds me, I gotta go collect some debt...
Anyway, reached back in the nick of time for the thing to start, haha, thank God
The intro sounded so nice, techno techno techno techno (although sounds like keyboard, trust me on this, it was techno)
So everything went on and on, and I sang and screamed and blah blah blah

The most memorable part was when Chris Tomlin sang Amazing Grace - My Chains are Gone
Somehow that song just sort of moved me
And well, I started like singing the verses kind loud
Then when the chorus came, haha, I just sort of wept
For no reasons... I just reflected upon the words and continued weeping
It was somehow fun, to cry like that, stress load down by like huge huge huge sum

After the whole thing (somehow I can't remember the intricate details... weird huh)
Wait, I do remember we are asked to pray for Jakarta, so, pray now pray now...
Okay, after the whole thing, we went out...
Then Elizabeth went like gila again...
I made a lame joke inside where I said "sing sing sing" in Mandarin and Malay...
Then she sang the whole "sing sing sing" part again and again and laughed like, well, you know

Anyways, parted ways with them...
On the way down, I was walking next to Joshua
We saw some of the audience taking pictures with one of the members of Chris Tomlin's band
Not to say I'm against taking pictures
But they're facial expressions were "I'm taking pictures with a star!"
LOOK!
Taking pictures for memories that you met with someone great and want to remember it or just to show people you met someone whom you admire because they serve God so faithfully is okay...
But if you're taking pictures when you're thinking that they're so great, and you're sort of more than admiring them, think that you can show off to people with that picture
Now, that's just idolizing...

Anyway, went home, thought about some crap after sms-ing with someone...
Then went to sleep...
Sigh, whole night was great
But Monday morning (1am or sorts) was disastrous...
I found out about crap...
Sigh...

Entry# 54- Disappointment

2008-08-02T08:40:00.001-07:00

Not that I'm so worked up about getting top rankings
It's just that, my best was...
Demolished by the brutal fact that my school's PA system sucks

First off, I would like to thank my friend and his band for practicing
LAST MINUTE
And help me in the song I sang

Second, I would like to really just scold and don't know what else I could do...
Those smart-alecks who think they know everything, when they don't
What happened?

Well, the solo contestant and her friends who used the amp totally rigged it
Into something really... crappy
My band's drummer was told by the previous solo contestant's drummer to set the electronic drum to some specific number
And the drum's bass sound came out like a snare
Then the electric guitars' amps were tweaked so loud that the whole thing was just... so wrong

Well, I do not know why the previous contestant and her friends would like to give really really bad advices to my band... Sabotage? Heh...
Anyway, the self-acclaimed totally competent PA Handlers Group (or something)
They set my mike's volume to a volume where it's only suitable to be used for talking, not singing
So I had to kinda raise my voice and sometimes I just went out of tune
Crap...
Imagine being drowned by the sound of the instruments and you're trying your best to make yourself sound louder, when you can't even hear yourself singing... Nuts...

Anyway, did my best though... Planned to move about on stage, but after hearing the whole sound system thingy, knew I would lose, then just dismissed that thought...
I'm just kinda... disappointed, but not angry...
Oh well, what can I say?
S**t happens... (sorry for using such an inappropriate word, but, it totally defines the situation)

Entry# 53- All Out

2008-08-01T05:48:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow gotta go all out
Why?
Er, coz...
Well, kinda important punya day la~

So, gotta try loh
Aim for top 3 gua, lol...
God help me please... Heh

Out...

Entry# 52- Sports Day(s)

2008-07-18T08:09:00.000-07:00

Usually people would say "Sports Day"
But for my school (and maybe some other schools)
It's Sports Days
With the "s" over there
3 consecutive days
What the...

Anyway, started Wednesday, ended today...
Kinda pointless, since I'm only zombie-ing there
Did take part in a race though, 1500m...
But since I registered late, can't participate
What the heck? Let me run la, sure last one... Lol!

Hm, the funny thing is, the first day are preliminaries and etc...
Second day there was this run-through for the Opening Ceremony
And the third day is the official Opening Ceremony
The last day = Opening Ceremony = What the w00t?
I mean, what's wrong with their internal clocks?
Or head, for that matter?
Opening Ceremony should be slotted into the first day, no?
Why the last day?
GOSH... Hopeless...

Hm... Venue was in Stadium Bola Sepak Tun Razak or something...
Can't really recall the whole name, but you should get the idea of where it was
So, there was a bit of a problem in getting lunch
(snacks were okay, coz there were those ramlee burger people selling just outside the gates, and of course, you could bring snacks yourself, you lazy bum)

Lunch... For first day, went with a friend to McDonalds
It's a guy, by the way, in case any of you get the wrong idea...
So, I tried the double spicy chicken mcdeluxe
Which was very... I guess, yum?
Haha, don't know how to express larh...

Second day, had already ordered take-out from some sort of restaurant
Was for the whole class... So sort of laid back that day, no need to call or run around...
It was black pepper chicken chop rice...
Taste was okay-okay lah...
Not to say very good or very bad...
Normal...

Third day, the last day, today
I had pizza, mwahahahaha
Since my friends don't really know how to converse in English
And since they're LAZY LIKE INEXPLICABLY LAZY
I had to call Pizza Hut, order the stuff and etc etc...
Not bad la... Since I big eater, kinda hungry after the meal
Even though there were leftovers and they gave it to me (Rubbish bin ar me?... Zzz...)

Then after everything ended...
Kinda loafed around...
Then some minor thing happened...
Was freakinly emo then, but got over it
Was really a minor, not-worth-a-mention thing
But still went emo mode
Haiz... What to do >_> Think too much, even though what I think is factual...

Nothing interesting to write...
Bored...
If remember anything write down la...
Out...

Entry# 51- Oh my w00t... Impossible...

2008-07-12T04:37:00.000-07:00

Recently
Took part in a competition

Lots of people, approximately 76?
They will only choose 15 out of 76
For the finals

And they sing better than me
Yet, I'm in the finals

Impossible...
w00t w00t!

Haha... Will try my best though
Whee....~

Entry#50 - Bah... Humbug...

2008-07-11T07:29:00.001-07:00

Now I'm dazed
For the past few days
I've been feeling bad
And a twist of sad

People, I can't weep
A solution I seek
To clear this sorrow
So I can face tomorrow

Not that I don't wanna weep
It's just that I can't set it free
Feeling kinda trapped
Inside, I'm going mad

So I just tried to smile and forget
The things that I regret
Confusions, delusions
Merely just illusions

Yet I can't shake off this distraught
In school forgetting what they taught
I'm like a little loose inside
And crazy behind these eyes
Yet the warm feeling's still there, no deny

Whatever... Just... Expressing >_>
Bah... Humbug... Again...

Entry# 49- Half-A-Life

2008-07-05T07:41:00.000-07:00

Half-Life, Half-A-Life...
Does it really matter?
I'm dying here... Lol...
Sniffing about coz' down with the flu
Half dead and half alive, yeah

So, am half alive physically
Fully dead emotionally
Fully alive spiritually (thank God)
So, add it all up...
Total = Half Alive

Anyways, kinda pissed off today
And angry
And emo-ed for awhile coz' remembered some stuff
Then like that loh...
Life's just the same...
Lolz

That's it for now
Too much for the head to take
Really heavy since I've got flu
BAH!

Speak Your Mind

A skill as a curse?

A skill as a curse?

Honing in progress

Expression

Another set of rhymes

The Way of the Emo

Stop asking me for titles, stupid Blogger

Another destress moment

What to do?

Destress

Talk-talk sia

Failures are good

Modernisation, what a pain

Insanity strikes

I eat noobs for snacks

Knowing

Wicked Sick

Stressed?

Bored

Apologies

'Pui' everything out

Damn you Adidas

Damn it, another emo day

"Why so emo lah?"

Seriously, damn it

Just saying

Why must I put a topic here?

Streamyx problem?

Bumpz

Title not required

Anger kills brain cells....

Too late a post

Quote Hulk?

Crash?

Ah, memories

MU pWn j00!!!!!!11

Skipping blogs

Ah, another one

Decisions, decisions

Insatiable

F5-ed

Been awhile

Earth Hour?

Vroom-ing is relatively easy

Boredom FTW

So, now what?

Madness Cycle

Games Un-Ltd.

What's with all the...

Lazy PWNAGE

Not here

*Kenneth shoots and maims Bahamut!*

Idling...

Randomness

Bored

Rumble...

Lol...

PSP mania?

Rusting

Was tagged by some...

Switchfoot - Dare you to move

Another post...

After SPM?

Torture >_>

In doubt?

In a fight

Moral is demoralizing

Lolz...

...

Again...

Falling Down

One as infinity, infinity as one

Wu Liao

SPM?

...

Unwell

... Gay

Dumbest Day

Let's sing System of a Down's song

Kenneth shoots and maims Bahamut!